I figured it would be best to start off with a sacrifice, so we’ll begin with a lamb from an IKEA farm set.

I bought the set for the horse, so the rest of the animals were never really used except perhaps as cat toys, but this lamb did serve a short stint as the mascot for my ex-girlfriend’s dog when he was in super hero mode.

I’m not really a dog person.

HD is recommended (and is actually larger in resolution than the above player).

now fuck off

I hadn’t planned on making a series of these, but I’m not going to turn down inspiration.
The first part of the set will be posted within a couple of days, it’s New Year’s themed.

I went to the dermatologist this afternoon, after having my last-hurrah with college in the form of a German final I did too well on in the morning, to have what I thought was a small cyst removed.

It ended up being some terrifying Geiger alien, videodrome-esque thing that was about the size of a rat head.  I think it was growing towards my spine.  I almost managed to simultaneously pass out and vomit as they tugged and pulled and cut far deeper in my body than I am used to feeling. Whatever the strong unidentified emotion I had been having earlier today, after having finished college after so long, was, it has been replaced by constant pain and a dreary tiredness that won’t let me sleep.

It’s like one of these that got lost and didn’t quite make it to the base of my neck:

Tonight, I’ve also posted a post commemorating my mother’s death and have back dated it to the day she passed.  You can see it here.

Pictures of the gore removed from my back after the break.

I graduate from college in 60 hours.
I have never been so humiliated.

edit, I guess its official now:

ALL REQUIREMENTS LISTED BELOW HAVE BEEN MET

only took me half my life…

tonight’s project, untangling 18 cubic feet of cables:

At risk of embarrassing myself, here’s my thesis.
Yes, this is what passes for an undergraduate research paper these days.
And yes, I know I cited everything incorrectly, doing it properly takes too long.

Forgive the meaningless post, its keeping me distracted while I finish this.  A lot has happened recently, and once I finish this I’ll have space to write about it.

This is strangely compelling to me from an information design standpoint in a completely unspecified and useless manner, though.

Progress on my thesis due this weekend, when the white is full, I’m done.

May 26, 1946 – October 21, 2009

I love you and I’ll be too mad at you forever to love you.
You were the best and worst mother anyone could ever have.
I miss you and I’m glad you’re dead.

I’ve rarely wanted to do anything as much as I wanted to go sit in an airport while wearing a t-shirt that said “TERRORIST’ on Sepetember 12, 2001.

I was concerned for the people I knew that worked in the area of the attack, but how people were reacting 700 miles away, where I lived was just absurd. No one cares about this crap city, no one is going to attack it, and yet people were all freaked out, pretending that people cared enough about our almost a skyscraper to fly things into it. Calling the police in terror because of dropped flour bags in Walmart parking lots.

Really the only thing that stopped me was being really poor then. I wasn’t really fond of the idea of rotting in jail and knew I couldn’t afford bail. Since then, many people have said that it’s probably for the best that I didn’t do this, I remain unconvinced.

That isn’t me, I stole the source picture for from here. This may be a good example of a shortcoming of CC licensing.

I am currently procrastinating writing my thesis.
To accomplish this, I have been sorting through boxes I’ve never unpacked, and tonight I took a crack at the lyrics for the song pulp baby by the systematics.

My mother has been in the hospital twice in as many weeks, when she went in for the last stay things looked fairly bad.  Her cancer has progressed to the point where a lot of fluid is building up on her abdomen, and ended up causing her to be vomiting pretty continually and unable to eat consistently for more than a month.  They’ve put a shunt in her so she can drain the fluid herself, and she’s gradually improving, but after vomiting for a month it is hard to get back in the swing of eating normally. She’s able to keep some food down now, but she’s still having some trouble, especially at night.

The first thing she was able to keep down was Dean’s Country Fresh Orange Pops:

She’d started eating almost entirely organic and almost entirely abstaining from sugar after her initial surgery, so the fact that that it was an amalgam of discount frozen chemicals that ended up helping her through, and especially the fact that she came to love them, is telling. I’ve tried to track down somewhere to buy them retail, with the help of friends, but have not had any luck so far.

The first surgery had been hard, especially as it had occurred only a few days after she was diagnosed.  (They ended up removing something like 6 lbs. of tissue from her, without anesthetic as she ‘didn’t want to feel weird’). But after she had ended up making what seemed to be an almost complete recovery and a complete relapse, it became kind of normal, and easier.

I tried to give this album a chance, but couldn’t make myself interested.

The warp page had a couple of videos posted so I ended up playing them both at the same time, and it was better.

Here are all of them at the same time.

Enjoy.